Still in the depths of winter and to be honest I am not really enjoying it, as I have mentioned probably a million times already, I am not one for the cold weather.
So this morning, I was so grateful to have no plans and the sun was out shining down on my front veranda. As soon as I woke, I made a coffee grabbed a cushion and the book I am currently reading and sat out there soaking up that beautiful warmth. I am currently reading Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert. It’s about creative living beyond fear. It is an easy read and I love that. In recent years, I have had a lot of fears pop up in my life, so I am working at releasing them and this book is working it’s ‘magick’ at the moment. It’s not a self help book, it is just little stories about her experiences with her creative processes. For so long, I have been planning to take little road trips. To find and stay at quiet little beaches, and when the weather is warmer I want to go but, I have had fears that have started to come up around that. What if my car breaks down and I get stuck somewhere What if I get lost What if I get kidnapped because I am on my own (I realise how ridiculous that sounds) And most of all What if it isn’t as amazing as I visualise it will be..... Silly I know, but these are the fears that are popping up within my mind. They are a small parts of a larger fear, my son Takoda is turning 18 in a couple of months and I am realising that, although he will always be my little boy, he isn’t my little boy anymore and is forging his own way in this world. But back to dealing with the fears. They have been running around on my head for a while Today, while Takoda and I were driving back from my accountant, I mentioned to him what was going through my mind. My fears that were springing up. You know what he said to me. "I know you are my mum and I love you, but omg stop it." "You create the experience you want, so create an amazing experience" I was gobsmacked. So much wisdom. And it is exactly what I have said to him a million times. He was right. Totally right!!! If my car breaks down I am insured, I have roadside assistance and my brother is a mechanic. I won't get lost, I have google maps and an actual map in my car. (yes they still exist) I am not going to get kidnapped, I will stay in safe places And most of all It will be as amazing as I have visualised it will be..... Because I will make it that way. So once we returned home, I cleared my space and lit my smudge stick. I cleansed myself and my space At the end of the waning moon, tomorrow being dark moon I release these fears. And, Takoda is coming with me on my first couple of road trips just to ensure I don’t get kidnapped. Niki xxx
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As I mentioned in my previous blog post, this winter has meant massive transformation for me. I have delved a little deeper into the darkness than I expected I would go (and to be honest deeper than I wanted to go) and there has been a shift within me. I announced on my Facebook page the other night that I have decided to stop creating the Magick & Wyld E-Magazine. This decision was difficult but I felt was what needed at this time. My creative energy is needed elsewhere. I need to spend my time and energy on creating new experiences. And, I have decided to share my magickal journey of transformation with you all through this blog. I love writing and I would love to share my magickal life with you. Within this blog I hope you get some inspiration to create magick within your own life. I wanted to share with you my experience last Full Moon. It was the first Full Moon evening in months that there was a clear sky to watch her rise. And this is exactly what I needed It was beautiful and I felt her intense pull With the beauty of the afternoon, I got lost in the moment Standing at the top of the sand dune I looked out to the ocean Seeing the beautiful colours in the sky as the sun was setting Watching the surfers still out waiting for that last wave before dark Seeing members of our tribe arriving to join with us to watch the moon rise I was filled with gratitude for my life With gratitude for where I live For the magick I weave within my life For those little moments where I feel that time stops and I am the only one around When I feel deeply connected to all that surrounds me These are the moments that I crave And this is the reason I am planning little road trips for when the weather is warmer To find secret places in nature, to get lost within time, to disconnect to feel connected As I continue to delve into the Winter Solstice time of reflection, so many things have come to the surface and have made me think about where I am at this moment within my life. Within the last 13 moons, so many things have happened. A relationship began but did not have the strength to succeed Magick & Wyld was full of activity with the E-Magazine and that has slowed I began to focused more on health and then that was forgotten with my treadmill again gathering dust and joggers somewhere in my room I could go on, but I don’t want to. When I look at it all, I am in the exact same position I was in this time last year. And, if I am honest with myself, the last few years. Although yes, I have learned through these experiences, especially within the last year, I have not achieved what I wanted to. I ask myself why and what am I going to do about it To be honest, I feel I have been a little slack in my own magickal practices. Putting all of my energy towards keeping my clients on track I realise I have lost some of my own mojo. This is a reminder to practice what I preach. So it begins The other night I began creating a vision ‘wall’. I have my bed against a wall in the corner of my room draped with material creating a little nook for me to sleep within. On the wall right near my head I have begun to stick up pictures that inspire me. Picture of what I want to do, how I would like to live. Every evening this is the last thing I look at and I can dream of the fabulousness that I will manifest. In the morning, I can wake and spend a few moments looking at the space inspiring and reminding me to work my magick throughout my day. Working from the Winter Solstice with the rebirth of the sun and its building of strength, I will continue to work with this energy, combining it with the energy of the moon phases, on every waxing moon I will add photos to my wall of manifestation. There are 2 important things I am working on, and knowing that when they fall into place the other items will slide on in. I am working on strengthening the Magick & Wyld E-Magazine, and also planning mini road trips up and down to the coast. What are you manifesting in this waxing energy? A beautiful day of darkness. The shortest day and longest night of the year. A time when, although it will still get colder in the coming months, we know that the light will again return to the earth. From today the sun will stay with us a little more each day growing in strength. We now enter the waxing part of the year. I equate this time to the Dark Moon (how perfect that it is Dark Moon on Friday) when we can go within, connect with our Ancestors for guidance and reflect of what has happened over the past year. It is a time to think on what it is you would like to manifest within the waxing phase of the solar cycle as the sun grows in strength which helps you manifest your dreams (and offcourse adding your moon magick to boost it all). Winter Solstice Magick Spend some time today to reflect. Remember the things you wanted to manifest last Winter Solstice. What has become of those wishes? Did they manifest? Did you forget what you asked for? Did you not put in any effort or work your magick throughout the year to manifest it? Whatever your answers are to the questions above, you must give thanks to the Gods and Ancestors for all the experiences throughout the past year. Give thanks for lessons learned. We must recognise that every experience, positive or negative, is an opportunity to learn and grow. Sit for a moment and farewell the year. Let it go. Release it. If you need to, write on a piece of paper something to let it go, this could be as simple as writing Goodbye. Then burn it. Now, think on what you would like to create in the coming year. Create a manifestation list 1,2,3,4 etc…. Then when you have figured out what you are attracting for the coming year, take a page for each item on your list. Write your item 1 at the top and then below that write down the different things you are going to do to manifest it. One by one go through the items on the list and detail your 'actions' (both magickal and physical) that are needed to manifest that which you desire. I suggest you go into as much details as possible, so that you can regularly revisit this list to change it, add to it and work through it. But remember, You have to do more than just write it down. You have to put your time and energy into manifesting it. How do you expect the energy of the Gods, the Moon, the Sun etc to work its magick if you do not align yourself with it and push it into the right direction. Here, now, at Winter Solstice, you are working your magick and changing your life. Be adventurous Step outside your comfort zone Delve deep realising your dreams What life have you always wanted to manifest? You are essentially creating a magickal 'To-Do' manifestation list, so that at next Winter Solstice, you can look back and think how far you have come with your manifestations. Wishing you all a beautiful and magickal winter solstice. This month, I recommenced my Delving into the Moon meditation evenings.
It was great having a few months off from holding workshops but wow I missed it and it was a profound meditation for me. I was immediately taken into the underworld where I was greeted by Persephone. After a conversation about love and what some call a Twin Flame connection we decided to cut the cord that was connecting me to a cycle that apparently I have been repeating over lifetimes. She looked at me and said, cutting this cord will hurt. My response: It can’t hurt as much as it already does. She smiled and cut the cord.... I was free.... Then I was immediately thrust to my usual Ancestral Fire where I meet with the same Ancestor I meet with every Dark Moon. Then, behind me I feel my Grandmother approaching me. This is a big thing for me as although I communicate with my grandparents often and feel their connection all the time, they have never actually come to me within my Dark Moon Meditations. She hugged me and said finally!! You have cut the cords and have ended a cycle. Ended a cycle of your life that has carried on for lifetimes. Now that it is cut, a new avenue will emerge. The conversation with my grandmother was beautiful and very deep. Then, I see my Grandfather walking over to us. He hugged me and said to me We hear you... We see you... We are always here... They then held hands, turned around and walk into the trees and disappeared. I sat by my Ancestral fire and thought on what my Grandparents said to me. I recognised that the cord I just cut, was something that would release me from the energy that I have held around love, and what has repeated throughout this life, and many others as advised by my Ancestors. Within that moment, I saw and felt the behaviours & emotions of the past leaving me. I saw everything in that area of my life with clarity. What a beautiful lesson to learn and how comforting that my Ancestors came to me in that moment to support and congratulate me on releasing that energy. On Sunday, (as I usually do) I spent time at my place at the beach. I am currently reading The Four Agreements. The book has floated in and out of my life many times over the years and I've never picked it up. But on the weekend, it again popped up and I grabbed it and delved in deep. There are words within the book that I cringe with, using the words spell, black magic and white magic in a way I would not, but I ignored my 'thoughts' on how those words are used and read on. Sitting at the beach I am reading through the second agreement. I got to a part where it says.... The mind has the ability to talk to itself, but it also has he ability to hear information that is available from other realms.... our minds also exist in the level of the gods.... It then went on to talk about the 'chatter' within our minds and not paying attention to it. About how the chatter within our minds is likened to walking through a shopping centre and hearing the noise from everyone talking etc and distracts us from 'being'. (we all know that right!?) That the mind lives in more than one dimension, and at times you perceive things not undestading their origin, and that can be from the place of the gods. I sat for a moment and thought about this. Staring out towards the ocean thinking of how when we work our magick we do tap into the place of the Gods. The world between world's. Then, in an instant, like someone had just turned up the volume of nature, all I could hear were the waves, the wind, the crickets, the birds etc. Sooooo loud. The feeling of the breeze against my skin was intense. Watching the magpies flying and dancing within the air was magnificent. And Omgoodness the colours of everything around me was brilliant. In that moment I felt like I had stepped between the vales and was experiencing everything so much clearer than I had ever before. I cannot describe it to you. It felt like it lasted a minute or two (but goodness knows really), but then some people ran up the sand dunes laughing and I returned to myself.... but wow.... what an experience. Simple yet Magickal Niki )O( I am so grateful for the connection that I have with the moon, with my ancestors and the gods. My connection is deep and very magickal. This Full Moon was a powerful one for me. As usual, every Full Moon, I join my tribe at the beach to dance and drum as the moon rises. This Full Moon, before the darkness arrived I walked to the oceans edge to give thanks to one particular Goddess. Aphrodite I have been working with Aphrodite for most of last year, asking her assistance to allow my heart to open to love. Late last year, Septembers Full Moon, the gods showed me that this was a possibility and I opened my heart to a man. It was beautiful and confronting all at the same time. It was a whirlwind few months with the Ancestors completely throwing me out out my comfort zone with everything moving along so quickly. Although it did not work out, destined that we would not be together, I was shown that I could in fact open my heart and allow love into my life. Yes, I was very sad that this relationship did not continue, heartbroken you could say. I was sad that our paths changed, and it was not destined to work and within that sadness I got angry with the Ancestors for putting me in this position of heartache. "They know how fragile I am in the arena of love", I thought, "they have been with me on my life's journey every step of the way, why would they do this?' but I did not sit in that energy for long. After many years of my heart being closed off to love, I realise that this is a possibility for me. So this Full Moon, I walked to the oceans edge with love in my heart and gave an offering of dried Rose Petals from the roses that adorned my altar at Beltane. I gave thanks to the Gods for meeting him, for bringing him into my life, allowing the deep connection to manifest so quickly therefore showing me that I could open my heart. Showing me that I can make room within my home, my heart and life for love. For that I am very grateful. For lessons I have learnt within those few months that we spent together. For finding my voice, for stepping outside my comfort zone, for showing me what I actually want within a relationship, for pushing through my fears and allowing me to be vulnerable. As I stood at the oceans edge I connected with Aphrodite sending her my energy and deep gratitude. Knowing that this experience has bought me that much closer to finding my love. Finding my twin flame. My Anam Cara I remind you that on the Full Moon, it is important for you to give thanks and extend your gratitude to the gods for all that you have and all the magick that has, or has not manifested. To thank them for their assistance. You cannot always ask, ask, ask without giving back to them. It is just rude and disrespectful. Our magick is not always about spell work, it is about connection. The balance of giving and receiving. You must take the time to just honour and give thanks. Blessings Niki )O( So you may have made some new years resolutions, all excited about the changes you want to make within your life, and then a week goes by you may sit and think, how am I actually going to manifest this within my life. How is it going to work? How can I keep on track? How can I make sure that I stick to this? One way you can do this is to connect to the phases of the moon, working with the waxing and waning energy. I have decided to create a range of incense blends for you to bring a little magick into your life. To help you work with the energies of the moon phases to manifest whatever your heart desires. To explain the energies in short, lets start at the: Dark Moon: A time to connect with your Ancestors or the Gods to receive guidance. New Moon: This is a time of New Beginnings. When you announce to the Gods and Ancestors what you are wanting to manifest. Waxing Moon Phase: This is the time between New and Full Moon when the energy of the moon in increasing and you can work your magick on attracting something to you. Full Moon: This is a time of abundance and great power. Any magick can be worked at this time Waning Moon Phase: This is the time between the Full & Dark Moon when the energy of the moon is decreasing in strength and you work your magick on releasing energy. We are then back at the Dark Moon. (For 2017 Moon Phase Dates click here) You can continue to work your magick through the phases of the moon to help you with your manifesting. Working in the waxing phase attracting and building, then working through the waning phase releasing blockages, that energy that is holding you back. When you connect with the moon phases, you can start to see the flow of your life and everyday, work your magick on manifesting your future. The first blend I have released is for this coming full moon The Full Moon energy strong, her energies at their peak. It is a great time to work magick on anything really, to utilise that powerful energy. Also, at the Full Moon it is a time of love and gratitude. To send that energy to your Ancestors and the Gods for all that you are manifesting within your life. This Full Moon Blend includes Frankincense Rose Petals Sandalwood Myrrh Benzoin Jump on over to my Etsy Shop to purchase before this coming Full Moon, 12th January. Limited available. As each phase of the moon phase comes upon us, I will explain within these blog posts what you can do. What will I be working on this Full Moon you ask? I will be asking the Gods and my Ancestors for strength and courage to step forward in my life, to step out of my comfort zone and bring forth my amazing future. I will be honouring them with deep gratitude for the lessons that I have learned, especially over the last few months. Its been a heart breaking time for me, but I am weaving my magick to work through it, and to release what I do not need, and to attract the changes that I need. With my magick, I can take responsibility for my feelings, my actions and my life. So why don’t you connect to the phases of the moon and manifest the life you have always wanted. |
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